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Self Help Guide for Being Alone

by Modern Chemistry

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1.
Why Do I? 03:40
It's pouring out can I come in? I know I smell of wet, fake leather but I can't stand out on this porch forever. I got this bottle of wine for us to share. Can we just talk? Can I come in? Can I just come in? I can make this easier on the two of us. I'm not worth your time if you don't think I am. Why do I have to keep convincing myself that I don't wanna see you? Don't call me up acting crazy, then tell me you're sorry, then start to ignore me. I'm unsettled by, by the moves you're making. I finished up and a grabbed my keys, and I'm on my way can you answer me? 'cause I'm worried that it's the last time... I can make this easier on the two of us. I'm not worth your time, if you don't think I am. Why do I have to keep convincing myself that I don't wanna see you? Why do I?
2.
Wait, Stay 03:35
A lack of silence crawling through my paper thin skin. Reconnect with the dead weight dragging me down. A pattern I'm too familiar with. And now I'm shaking into the ground. I won't let it in. This screen has been blurring my mind. The pills make it better erasing words one at a time. Wait, Stay. Say there's some other way just Wait, Stay. Sit here and talk me through this. Shaking at the thought of giving everything I've got just to be torn apart. I grind me teeth till there's nothing left and live with acid burning through my chest. You got quite the nerve to try and ease your mind. You got quite the nerve, to say the least. Wait, Stay. Say there's some other way just Wait, Stay. Sit here and talk me through this. Wait, Stay. Say there's some other way just Wait, Stay. Sit here and help me out... 'Cause I've been alone in self doubt for so long. Just hopeless, grasping for touch from what's left of the soul. I poured my heart into this I let my ignorance thrive just to feel whole again. I don't even know what to say. I've given up anyway. My conscience fought me the whole way. I should've trusted the pit in my stomach. Honestly, I never gave all that I should have and I should have. I was afraid it would come back to haunt me. So just wait. Just stay. Stay here, it's not getting any better. Wait, Stay. Say there's some other way just Wait, Stay. Sit here and talk me through this. Wait, Stay. Say there's some other way just Wait, Stay. Sit here and talk me through this.
3.
Cling 04:54
I'm too busy to be your source of motivation. I'm too tired to be the one that you'd die for. (move on) You're tatted up with insecurities. You're running back to the river, the Raritan pulls you in. Patch me up, no really write me off and tell me secrets are better we'll hide this one away. Moving coast to coast, to be with the one you love. I can't help but think we're just too young that we're just too young. I keep clinging to you. Maybe I've never felt it. I have no context and I got no right to talk. I wish you the best in his home. I'm sure you'll find what you're looking for. I hope you never get lonely. (but you're bound to grow lonely) I hope you never get, I hope you never cling. I hope you never get lonely. (but you're already lonely... aren't you?) Moving coast to coast, to be with the one you love. I can't help but think we're just too young that we're just too young. I keep clinging to you. I was buried in doubt. I was buried in doubt but though I... I was blinded by love but thought I'd risk it. It's an art form. a sad way of life. I was buried in doubt, but it's an art form. It's an art form and I'm a waste of life. And no we can't go back. We came, we came together. We cling, we cling together.
4.
Never Scared 04:21
Little black spots that your memory's laced with remembering now and your mind is racing. I've got a mess of a place to lie my head. Got a few good friends who want me dead. I pile up my sins like dirty clothes. Have an undying passion for being alone. Never again, never again will I falter or break. Cleanse all your sins, tell all your friends how crazy I am through your lens. I'm never scared. I'm never scared. I swear, I never am scared. And it's too much, too late to make this right as I'm watching my helpless body crash into the ocean in one quick motion. Well, I'd rather sink than swim. I've come this far. I'll break another fall with fragile arms and it's your fault I've got another scar. But I swear... I'm never scared. I'm never scared. I swear, I never am scared. I can't wait to go and leave you here alone. 'Cause I can't wait to be alone. I'm never scared. I'm never scared. I swear, I never am.
5.
Habits 03:34
Haunted by the way you said goodbye. Took my car to the park where we used to sit and drink till three in the morning. I'm zoning out. Oh god, I'm losing it. Have you gotten the chance to break all those terrible habits? I see you're still smoking cigarettes. I'll leave my coat at the door. There's no way back from here. There's nothing left to say. I'll take the liberty to walk away. How many steps till we've gone too far? There's a pain in your eyes that I swear I've never seen before. And all these memories are jaded. All these years that passed, we wasted. Now we're faded. There's no way back from here. There's nothing left to say. I'll take the liberty to walk away. I'll walk away. I'll let it go. I won't head through the door until these lights turn off. (I can't stand and watch you go) I've lost my fear of always needing you. I've lost my fear.

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Modern Chemistry is
Joe Zorzi: Vocals/Guitar
Brendan Hourican: Guitar/Vocals
Matt Coccaro: Bass
Jesse Slachman: Drums/Percussion/Backing Vocals

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released August 9, 2014

Recorded & Engineered by Joe Dell'Aquila @ Exeter Studios.
Mixed by Joe Dell'Aquila @ Exeter Studios.
Mastered by Bill Henderson @ Azimuth.
Artwork by Mad Money in the Bank Entertainment.


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